Settling in

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 Settling into my new weird schedule.

its fine. I think i can make it work. honestly have barely been going out anyway and its been no issue to get all the days off i need for already purchased concert tickets.

i have three non-consecutive days off which is cooler than i thought it would be

its like one day off to get shit done and then one long work day and then a weekend where i dont have to rush to get everythign done. because i did that.

joined a 24 hr gym because i cant workout since the gyms are open same hours i work on weekends

but i think i can make this work

my body is still healing from the flea spray incident i started this blog no one reads to vent about but it is healing. its liek 4 years now. 

my worries now are about politics because i see america sliding into authoritarianism and i dont get why half the country is fine with this. theres no way out of people dont stop it. and regardless they will say they won so we only have a few months before shit gets really bad. For a short while if democrats win. for the rest of my lifetime if they don't. 

but at least for this moment my worries are about finding accessories for my pink dress. 

the people at my new job seem to be normal
and by that i mean they say good morning and they dont get in fights and they offer to get things for other people when they go out and dont expect me to know how to do things they havent taught me. 

i think itll be fine

and if not ill do something else.

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