Just did the load of laundry from the garage

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 took it to the laundromat

washed it 2x with clear detergent

It was a mix of things from the apartment from the load i washed 10x and still couldnt wear

but now i know it was likely the detergent i was using i was reacting to so im very optimistic that is solved and if that is true then i can wear any/all my clothes going forward

and wash them in my new machines

which would be awesome.

im really ready to have one wardrobe with pieces i actually like again.

But there are a couple of things in this load that definitely from the before-times that were for-sure exposed directly to "the stuff" that caused all this in the first place so its possible ive just contaminated the entire load of clothes or its possible i've solved everything or its possible some shade of in-between.

I brought back the plastic dresser so i can keep these clothes separate but im going to try wearing them and see what happens. because pretty much everything depends on it.

The sensations in my back have changed a lot since i changed to the new detergent whch for the record is ivory, its gentle but it does have a scent because i hated not having a scent which is why i kept going back to my old detergent, which turned out to almost certainly be the thing ive been reacting to in recent times and how i figured all this out and why im so optimistic i can have all my clothes back.

I can't wait to put all my clothes together and weed out some of the things I've been wearing just because it was what there was to buy when i needed clothes.

I've been instagramming my dresses and telling stories which just makes me miss having my whole wardrobe even more. but hopefully it wont be long before i can have it all.

then i still need the carpet

and to pay the bills

and im done with this nightmare.

that'd be awesome.


I was upset in the beginning when i got the realization itd take probably about 2 yrs to dig out of the hole but now im on 2 1/2 its probably gonna be more like 4. but whatever then life will be awesome so no reason to stop now.


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