Shouldn't have done that

In some fit of madness because I was so tired of my tounge being so sore and swollen, i swished my mouth with some vegetable oil I had on hand and I'll be damned if that wasn't some relief. Some gross gross relief.

I did it a few times over the course of the next day and it was more disgusting every time but also more relief every time, so I got some mouthwash for dry mouths.... I had it at the house, ive used it before for a chronic sore throat i couldn't get rid of until the urgent care nurse told me to try it when she didn't see anything wrong going on in there and I'll be damned if my throat wasnt fine in about a week.

So im a few days in of keeping my mouth lubricated and its about 50% better, which feels like a lot and I'm sure it'll heal and ill be fine and life will be grand.

Thought I'd apply the same rule to my body which is suffering still. My skin is a mess, so i used some body oil on it and that seemed ok, tried some sunburn gel w lidocaine and it was nice but it was messy and i felt cold and gooey... i'm sensitive to creams and lotions so I have to be careful with that kind of thing... tried some cortizone spray thinking thatd be all the effects of cortizone with none of the side effects but it turned out to be nothing but suffering i can't wash off and I'm regretting it big time.

Decided to go back to doing nothing but washing w/the tea tree oil soap which is anti-inflammatory and doesn't do anything bad to me.

Because so much of my body is burning now and my legs are itchy and it feels like a step backwards.

I cried a little while today.

I havent actually done that.

Through this whole thing i havent actually done that save in the middle of work one day when things were at the worst, i went on personal time and cried in the bathroom for a few minutes.

The rest of the time ive been having to figure out how to get myself out of this situation.

and then once I was out i've spent all my time since then trying to figure out how to get back home.

I havent figured out anything yet but moisturizing my skin is not the answer.

I made an appointment for an infared sauna session. That will either help or make me suffer. no clue which but it was warm last weekend and I was outside in the sunshine in a tank top and the heat felt great on my back so I'm hopeful it will do me some good. 

I got tired of poisoning myself so i quit doing that but i guess its just my skin being really sensitive. Maybe the house is ok if i can heal my skin. 

I don't know how to do that but Im not putting anything on it. 

I really want to go home but theres no way to know if its safe for me in there if my body feels like its on fire when I'm not even in there. 

I have high hopes for the sauna. 

But i think i was doing better doing nothing.