DawnOwar's Blog

 Cancelling my other job interviews because this job is chill and easy.  I mean i dont know how to do it yet and the hours are weekends and holidays but i dont do anything with those days anyway most of the time.  I did two days and theyre like you will have a lot of down time, bring in a computer or whatever you want to entertain yourself.   Last guy would get mad at me if i filed my nails while i was doing other things. I just did two days of training which meant i mostly sat there but it seems like once i understand what im supposed to do and how to do it its going to be mostly doing nothing and that just seems like a vacation to me after a year and a half of working in an office with a TV on in a small space listening to every thing everyone else was doing and being talked to like i'm slacking, never once getting a "good job" or any positive remarks on my work, getting randomly yelled at for no reason just because the boss is stressed and also getting random...

 After i did my post, i went outside and sat in the hot tub with the intention of taking the rest of the evening to do relaxing things and get ready for the funeral tomorrow. I messaged a friend to tell her how just the interview was enough to make me feel validated finally and to see my experience of the last year and a half through different eyes. No wonder i was tired all the time.  And as i told her how i dont even care if i get that job or not, the experience of going to that job interview was what i needed. Just someone to care for what I've been through and let me know theres a possibility of a happy future for me.  and as i was telling her this the job offer came into my inbox. So i was unemployed for a week and a half.  Its not a done deal yet because i still have to go over details. It seems like its worse hours and lower pay but it is much easier work and it comes with benefits. If i get a boss that isnt an asshole who picks fights with me and wants me to ...

 I called the whole flea spray incident over. Im not sure if I did that officially on this blog that no one reads or not but im doing it now. which is awesome. What a terrible time in my life. Ive detailed already so many times that i have sensations all over my body in my skin still but its not intolerable anymore and all the really scary and awful side effects are gone. and I hope my skin will heal fully eventually.  Financially I've mostly recovered largely by working through the entire thing. So im kind of back where I started in Covid times. Then my friends husband died suddenly the other day for reasons still unknown and my jerky boss who is a jerk picked a fight with me over the stupidest possible thing because he's an argumentative asshole with some need to fight with people when he's stressed out. People being me.  I'm not over it and i dont want to get into details or ill get all angry again but basically i walked out the door after a year and a half and didnt...