DawnOwar's Blog

In some fit of madness because I was so tired of my tounge being so sore and swollen, i swished my mouth with some vegetable oil I had on hand and I'll be damned if that wasn't some relief. Some gross gross relief. I did it a few times over the course of the next day and it was more disgusting every time but also more relief every time, so I got some mouthwash for dry mouths.... I had it at the house, ive used it before for a chronic sore throat i couldn't get rid of until the urgent care nurse told me to try it when she didn't see anything wrong going on in there and I'll be damned if my throat wasnt fine in about a week. So im a few days in of keeping my mouth lubricated and its about 50% better, which feels like a lot and I'm sure it'll heal and ill be fine and life will be grand. Thought I'd apply the same rule to my body which is suffering still. My skin is a mess, so i used some body oil on it and that seemed ok, tried some sunburn gel w lidocaine ...

because it just got too long.  Basically I had to move out, and here I am 3 mos out of the house, 5 months after I sprayed the spray and ruined my life. I'm okay. Well ok as i can be at the moment which is all I can work towards really at this point. I'm healing. not healed if you can believe that but healing. Basically I kept accidentally poisoning myself with things from the house and it got to be a real drag feeling awful all the time. More specifically, my skin is still really sensitive and feels like its burning, itching, numb and tingly.. some version of all these things and it moves around and it is very slowly getting better if i stay away from the house and everything that has been in it. So at least I have a path forward. Its not the one i want but if i were to just abandon my house and everything in it I can start over and live a life and be okay. Well my electronics survived and my glass work desk and I've got a metal shelf over here, maybe some more of the hard...