Everything is not terrible
So i found some investments to sell and i can pay off the bulk of my debt i incurred for this whole nightmare and i have some spending money now maybe and im thinking about doing fun things and spending some money maybe doing things to make me happy and isnt that fucking awesome im mostly ok its been hard to get in the mindset im ok now i ran into an old friend and i was basically teling him how everything is terrible.. but im ok now mostly.. and hes like maybe you just have a hard time believing things are OK. he said he does this and hes all doom and gloom for no reason sometimes because he had a hard time of things for a long time. and im like yeah thats exactly what im doing because everything *is* ok now im not exactly back to where i was but pretty close and ive spent the last few months relaxing finaly because i can and enjoying that things are ok but somehow when i tell people my story it all comes out doom and gloom anyway still. i havent got my social life on track again...