It might be over now finally
So boyfriend had to move to indiana and that was a huge relief because its hard for me to be in any relationship and even harder to be in one that doesn't suit me at all. Not gonna get into specifcs because theres no reason to do what may seem like slander the man but that was no relationship for me. I tried really hard, because i think maybe the reason im perpetually single is because I dismiss pretty much everyone too quickly... so i did the even dumber thing this time of not fleeing as my instincts were telling me and sticking with it too long and i feel like I may have hurt his feelings when I should have dipped out like right away. I was never really feeling it, i was just sticking around trying to. hoping those feelings would come but mostly i only got confirmation again and again and again that i would rather do almost anything but spend time with this man, by spending time with this man and wishing i wasn't. so thats the good news because im focusing on my love...