DawnOwar's Blog

 So i am pretty sure i have figured out what happened to me. I mean i know the flea spray gave me nerve damage. but after that why i didnt get better and i kept on getting worse when I tried to clean things and when I tried to move home. I think i put this in my last entry but i'm going over it again Basically i have a new washer and dryer now because i could still smell "THE SMELL" in my dryer and i'd spent so much time and energy trying to wash "THE STUFF" out of that load of clothes from my apartment that somehow got infected. I thought from a stray sock or something.  It didnt make any sense but i just got sicker and sicker and sicker Couldnt wash it out no matter how many times i tried, it still smelled like that and it was making me sick so it was time to leave the apartment and go home once i wasnt safe there anymore. Then it was just causing me expense and misery. I was so unhappy having to live there. I tried to make the best of it at first and the ...

 I feel like i never update this but i solidly check in about once a month it seems. So where are we now?  I got my insurance license and along with it a raise putting my new job's salary at a much higher level than where I'd be at if i never said fuck this and left my cushy work-from-home job. And the work is easier imho. More pleasant. im still learning but its an easier day all around, normal biz hrs and I can theoretically have a life outside of work now. with that license came a lot of stress gone now i dont have to study and i dont have to worry about passing the test or doing all the things and more training after that to be able to do the new things at work that are getting me the more money.  Which will pay for what I still owe from the whole awful flea-spray incident that turned my whole life upside down and made me live in some perpetual horror in which i was being attacked by an unseen unknown enemy for over 2 years. But the good news is that after much suffer...