DawnOwar's Blog

 I've been out a few times. I'm ready to restart my life on the one hand. On the other hand i dont have money for that. on the other hand i had what I call "hormone fuck" a few days ago which is essentially when I don't exercise enough and i get my period and i feel sad for no reason and I just want to drop out of society because everything is terrible. It's solved by chocolate and exercise.  For real. that works. So that's what I did and i did feel better, but in the funk of it all i was feeling sorry for myself because my new job .. the guy who shares the office with me is out having a baby and im in the room all alone and we haven't been busy so I haven't had reason to walk around and talk to people, which is why i picked this job because it was supposed to be a lot of walking around talking to people and here I am again sitting in a room by myself doing nothing much of the day only now im not home with my cats and my kitchen and my things to en...

 I can't remember the exact day I actually came home for real to stay but it was around now a year ago. Maybe last week. I guess thats good i can't recall the specific day. Or maybe its a milestone i should be celebrating. I have a tiny bottle of champagne i got from a friend in the fridge the time i moved home but then had to leave again. I decided I'd drink it to celebrate when I was home for real. But its still there in the fridge a year after that already happened. I mean i couldnt know, could I? that it was gonna stick so i never drank it. I guess i could have drank it any time in the last 12 mos but im not feeling celebration. next month is 2 yrs since the awful day this all started. I I don't want to celebrate that either. I got the blues today for no real reason. Everything is fine. the cat is back to normal. I have my old sofa back. I got rid of some stuff from the garage while i had them remove the old one and I can get in there now to clean it out.  The weath...