DawnOwar's Blog

I'm one pill away from being off these pills I was so happy to get prescribed for me. They pretty much just made me a zombie, but that was good for awhile and took me through the part where I was scared of everything and didn't know if I was going to be ok, so I'm home and I believe now and I'm getting ready for the colder months in my house where I can finally start to settle in now I'm starting to feel lucid again. Looking forward to doing Thanksgiving at home for me and my cats. Last Thanksgiving was one of my worst days ever. I was sick and I had to work and I was suffering and I was really hoping for a do-over this year, in my own house, where I belong. Thing about having an ongoing crisis for over a year is that people have their own things to attend to and they move on while you are still more-or-less in the same place. Not that anyone could have really helped me, and not that no one did... I had a lot of people that tried to what extent they could. Proba...

 I'm home for two months now. Well two months and one week. and counting. I've had a neurologist diagnose me with Small Fiber Neuropathy which is a relief in so many ways. Because I'm finally actually being treated for something. He's got me on gabapentin which mostly makes me loopy and I can't take the full dosage if i still want to function but you're supposed to ramp up so i'm taking 2 of 3 pills a day for now with intentions to ramp up.  I'm pretty functional on 2 a day now but when i add a 3rd in that all goes to hell so I thought id give it another week or so before i try again, just because I have things to do. Another reason this diagnosis is so great is because its my body and its probably not me reacting to "THE STUFF' anymore, which i knew because i literally took everything out of the house, pulled up the (2nd) carpet and painted with two coats of a sealing primer and two coats of paint. so how could i be reacting to anything in here...